Sunday, June 22, 2003

I first read Krishnamurti when I was working in Singpaore. The title is The First and Last Freedom. In the book Krishnaji talks about love, conflicts, relationships and so forth. However, his discourse is very different from the one you read from today expert on relationship and I will not dwell on it here because honestly speaking I do not claim to fully comprehend everything he says to the extent that I can talk about it freely.

Krishnaji was brought up as the Great Teacher/Master after being spotted by someone who is himself a Guru of some sort. He was later related to the Theosophist and in later years left the group. His greatest act was when he dissolve the organisation in 1929 that was set up specifically for his coming into being.

In his later years, he denounce organisations, sects, religious movement and all groupings that in his words will hinder the progress of an individual search for the Truth. Check out the link.Truth is a Pathless Land

I wont say he is an agnostics because clearly from his upbringings to his years in holding "talks" (not preaching nor teachings)he is a man who has found the Truth he is talking about.

The reason I am writing about him here was his influence in my chain of reasoning. I've read quite extensively in search for an answer -- the answer to my question about higher being and also about why are we here in the first place.

I am a professed Agnostic because I am very skeptical of the so called 'answer' to life put forth by writers who are long gone and by today preachers and believer who accept the teaching based on nothing but faith. (no offence intended.)

A friend of mine who is a practitioner in the "unknown" (occult, magic, mediums etc..) who can do and see things which only a real believer will believe has always advised me not to question the forces of nature because what was written about the "other" side (heaven, hell, fairies, deities, higher being etc..) is true.

However, my questioning is not meant to be disrespectful of traditional beliefs nor am I set out to antagonise some very sensitive true believer of the "other" side.

Rather, my questioning began because I am really hoping that somehow I should be able to experience (tangibly) see and feel with my five senses what all the theist is talking about so that I can accept the setforth theory with no more skepticism in mind. (dont it souns like I am trying very hard to convince myself that there're really beings beyond our five senses? Maybe yes but I just cant take it and accept it just because someone say that should be how it is.)

Krihnaji asked that his listener drop all their beliefs, conditioning and authority so that the heart can be at peace and then, only then we will be able to see or feel the Truth.

However, he did not elaborate on what the "truth" is therefore I can only deduce that the truth he is talking about must be akin to what buddhist describe as "nirvana" or what Taoist like Lao Tsu and Chuang Tsu talks about as the Tao.

Saturday, June 14, 2003

Thursday, June 12, 2003

Do spirits exist? do they live in a parallel world with us? i've some guru friends and they can actually "see" entity -- i'ld love to so that i can prove to myself that i am a believer and not an agnostic but tried i did yet not a single entity materialise in front of me.

people ask why do i want to be able to "see" .. why i am so interested in knowing whether the other dimension exist or not.. i dont know..prob becos i just want to be sure that life does exist after "life"..man..am i a hypocrite or what???

I've been searching for the meaning of us having to live to die for the better half of my life but till today the answer still seem elusive.

BTW, for the uninitiated of "agnostic???" here's a link:
Bertrand Russell....(my fav philosopher..check out his book, why i am not a christian) and another explanation here: Dictionary

Both the above explanantion touch on christianity but i think it is applicable to every other religion as well and to all race.